"So this is Christmas..."Yesterday I came back home, by train, from Skien and from the base... I don't think I actually realised what it would mean until we had worship at the end of the Christmas-part, and people were encouraged to come forward and say something. (That is also one of the reasons why I write this only in English, so that the people who can understand this is limited... ;)...) Many talked about how glad and thankful they were for having been at the base (DTS or SOE) the last 3 months. How it had changed them or simply just helped them. And when we had worship and sang songs about how God is the only one who deserves our thanks, praise and lives - I had to remind myself several times of Romans 8:15... Because I felt afraid, unsure, about how it would be to come back home. I hadn't been home since I left for DTS (in september) and a lot has changed in me since than(!). I realised that I would miss the people I had gotten to know and rely on, so incredibly much!! But at the same time I saw that it maybe was a kind of a "test" for me to see if I relied more on men than I do on God!!
I remember looking around in the room and just feeling such a love for the people there!! I've gotten the best fiends I've ever had while I've been on the base, and I don't know but I truly, turly hope that I will be able to keep those friendships for a very long time!!!
So now I'm back home... And I'll have to face things I know I 'll meet. Things I used to view as normal! I'll have to choose to live in forgiveness, every day, and also in a much more direct way since I'll probably meet those persons. I'll have to choose to walk in Gods ways, and not my own, in situations where I know that I'll easily fall back into "old habbits of behaving"... And, maybe most importantly, I'll have to choose to believe that I am precious and that I am loved for the one I am, and also tell myself that!... I'll have to go against every thought of "you're not worth anything" or "people don't like you" or "why did you behave like that?"... I am someone!! And I know that there's someone who loves me! And I choose to not let bad experiences in the past, thoughts like "it will happen again when I'm back home" or anything else, which is a lie, affect me or the way I am...
Maybe this was too personal... But if so, please let me know!!
7 comments:
så bra Malin! Eg e så stolt av deg :) Stå på :)
God jul :)
Malin - you are lovely and open. If people think this is too personal then they can just shove off!!
You're wonderfully sensitive and friendly. You have so much going for you.
You go girl - :)
Du er kjempeflott Malin! Vær deg selv og vit, i hvem, du har din identitet. Ønsker deg ei god jul hjemme. Har stor tro på deg!!
Gleder meg til å se deg igjen på nyåret;)
-Juleklem-
Malin, du e så bra...D e godt å lesa d du skrive...For eg slite jo me akkurat d sama som deg å d e oppmuntrene å sjå koss du he tenkt å takla ting!! Du e et bra forbilde å eg e så stolt av å kunne få kalla meg din venn(å romvenninna:D) Du e SÅÅÅÅÅ utruli bra!!! Glede meg t nyttårsfestivalen!! Ønske deg den beste jula ever!! :-D Love you!!
Forresten, nå he eg endeli somla meg t å få link t deg på bloggen min...Hehe, bedre seint enn aldri?
Ja, så kom d ennå ein kommentar frå meg då;) Funke mobilen din igjen ellar?? kåoz Hils helina:);)
hey you... I didnt say goodbye when I left Skien- you guys were all in class so it didnt work. But I wish you a good few months of teaching and all, and then outreach too!!! You're a great gal... probably one of the most encouraging, including, caring people I've met!That you should know! Keep standing on who God says you are! :)
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